I worry that I waited too long to see the doctor and that in doing so, permanent damage has already been done. Will I ever be able to eat normally again? Probably not. Do I already have irreversible nerve damage? Probably. Although I am scared, I am keeping a brave face for my family, I owe it to them.
This week has been good though, a learning experience if you will. I was given an Accu Chek meter by my doctor and as I was checking my sugars, they were really high and all over the place, so I ended up having to get a One Touch Ultra that my insurance covers and was happy when I tested much lower and the results were consistent.
My doctor wants my BG to be under 120 in the mornings before I eat, and under 180 two hours after I eat dinner. At first my numbers were all in the 200’s with the Accu Chek, so I am not sure what they actually were. However, my accurate numbers are under 180 at night, although I am still a little over 120 in the mornings. I found out however that growth hormones can cause the BG to be higher in the mornings than they are at night, so I need to talk to my doctor about that to ensure that I am taking my meds at the right times. I am, however, happy with these results so far.
Keeping my calories where my doctor wants them is the hard part. He says he wants me to eat around 1800 calories which I think is a bit high and have not been able to get there at all. I do eat, and I get my fill, I just eat low calorie, low carbs and next to no sugars, but the foods are filling. The first day that I was diagnosed, I ended up with only 1000 calories for the day. That was also the day that I didn’t eat any carbs or sugars because I thought that’s what I needed to do. Big mistake!
The next day, I felt awful and started to do more research and found that I am supposed to have about 60g of carbs per meal. That too seemed a bit excessive as well, but I am getting some carbs now. I need them especially since I have finally gotten off the couch and started walking. Here is what my day looks like so far as I am learning and adjusting my routine:
- Check my sugar as soon as I wake up.
- Walk the kids part way to school (I end up doing about .4 miles)
- Eat breakfast-English muffin, Canadian bacon and cheese
- Do chores while listening to music and yes, some dancing!
- Morning snack, something low carb, low calorie
- Chores or blogging
- Lunch-this is where I get most of my carbs, usually around 40-50g to get through the rest of the day
- Anything else that needs to be done, or heck, watch a little TV and relax
- Afternoon snack, again something low carb and low calorie
- Walk to pick up the kids from school, another .4 miles
- Spend time with the kids, homework help, feed them…you know the drill
- Walk with hubby as soon as he gets home, about .4 miles (are you seeing a pattern?)
- Eat dinner-I do little carbs for dinner however I look at my calorie intake for the day and if my calories are low, I try to compensate with slightly higher calorie meals and vice versa.
- Check my BG before bed and then head to bed at a decent hour now that I am not plagued with insomnia
This weekend I relaxed a bit, I was still active, but didn’t go walking. I felt bad about it on Saturday but realized that I needed it. After being a couch potato for so many years, I know my body, it cannot handle that much exercise all at once, I have to listen to it and take a break. Sunday was pretty hard for me though, I feel like my sugars might have been low as I was dizzy, jittery, nauseous, just overall felt horrible. I checked my BG right after I ate to see if I was in fact low and I was in a safe range, but I still couldn’t get to a point where I felt right until I took a nap. I awoke refreshed and almost back to normal.
I am working on getting up to .5 miles minimum per walk this week and will continue to push myself harder every week.
My kids keep telling me that I am shrinking although I do not see it. I mean I know my clothes are looser, but when I look at photographs from February to now, I see no difference at all. I am looking forward to the day that I can see it too! And when I am comfortable showing my progress, I will share them with you too.
I still have a lot to learn about living with diabetes and I know that my meals and routine will probably change a lot until I find what works best for me, but for now I am taking things one day at a time!